Focus: Becoming accountable
Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
On the day you were born, you had the traumatic experience of being taken from a snug spot where everything was familiar–to a life where nothing was the same for you anymore. Frankly, you had outgrown your space and it was time for change.
You came out pretty messy. Somebody had to clean you up and cover your nakedness. You were completely helpless. You didn’t always like the realities of your new life. It wasn’t fun when you had to actually cry to let someone know you were hungry, tired, or had a soiled diaper. Yet, you were totally vulnerable and unable to care for yourself—so that’s what you had to do.
You might have the idea that your needs weren’t cared about or met back then, but they were—or you wouldn’t have made it through that period of your life. Somebody was there for you and did the best they could to provide for you.
As you got older, you became capable of doing some things on your own. Good thing. If you had lived your whole life and never learned to bathe and take responsibility for your own physical hygiene, you may not have survived. If you had never done anything to keep yourself clean, in plain and simple terms—you’d have become a smelly mess. Someone nobody would want to be near!
When the condition of depression and dependency becomes truly overwhelming, you come to the stark realization that you really can’t make it anymore. Without a drastic change and the help of God—you aren’t going to live.
On that day—you are ‘born’. You’re ripped from a place of familiarity into a life where things may be unfamiliar and uncomfortable. You are probably pretty messy, besides. Not a cute little bundle anymore, but maybe a wreck—with a lot of baggage. Still, just like on your ‘birth day’, you are helpless. Everything you have tried has failed and you need someone stronger than yourself to help you make it. Quite possibly, you’ve worn out all of your family, friends, and relationships. There is no one to turn to anymore–but God.
Coming to this acknowledgment is pivotal, but it isn’t where the story ends—nor is it the sole solution to your problems, by far. Now, you must begin the process of submitting yourself to someone else’s hands to clean you up and help you learn to live in a new way–a way that isn’t going to end up literally killing you…like depression and dependency will, if you don’t stop the pattern.
In the same way that the bath you received on your ‘birth day’ wasn’t the only one you would ever need—your new life is going to require constant self-examination and a willingness to stay accountable and ‘cleaned up’ on a daily basis, for it to be a lasting change.
Declaration: I choose to give God daily permission to search me and know me. I will find new strength as I am accountable to Him and to those He has placed in authority over me. With the help of God, I will learn to keep myself clean and not put the responsibility on other people anymore.
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