Focus: Leaning on the Everlasting Arms
Isaiah 40:28-29 (ESV) Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might He increases strength.
Sometimes you feel you are alone in your battle. You are weary from trying to please people. You get tired from the fight and are plagued by the hollow ache for understanding and love. You have regrets. Sometimes you think you’ve conquered the problem and then you turn a corner and are face to face with emptiness. When will the pain go away? Where can you turn for strength? How will you get through this battle and not be swallowed by it?
Loss will affect you that way. There are so many layers of broken pieces to sort through. There is no putting them back together. It won’t happen. Yet, you can’t bear to throw them away. They are fragments you hold onto when things get quiet and sleep won’t rescue you.
The more you think—the more complicated things become. At times you wish you could just turn it all off somehow—just dial it down—or go backward in time instead of forward, because you don’t see an end to this and you have a hard time imagining how it could ever get any better.
There isn’t anyone you can talk to the way you wish you could. You seriously doubt if you even wanted to talk—if there would be someone who could know what you feel. Who could ever relate to the sheer size of the cavity in your heart? It is such a slow, slow journey and you wonder if you are gaining or losing.
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You are tired of hearing advice. You can’t see God or His Hand at work toward anything good. It all seems like words, just words. Words that don’t seem to apply to you. When will there be a turning point? Why hasn’t it come? Will it ever?
The answer is ‘yes’…there will be a turning point. I can’t say when it will come for you. But, it will come.
You feel faint because you are trying to stand so strong. You want so much to make things work and it’s harder than you thought it would be.
It’s time to stop trying so hard to stand so strong. It’s time to lean. It’s hard for people like you to lean. You’re so used to putting on a good front so that no one will guess you’re dying inside. It’s what you’ve done for so long. It’s what you thought you were supposed to do—so you did it. You’ve smiled, you’ve lied, and you’ve stood strong. But, that’s not necessary now.
This whole thing has happened so that you would learn to lean. And that burden you’re carrying…you know you can’t keep carrying it much longer. The weight of it is getting to be too much. You feel so responsible to keep carrying it—but what God wants is for you to lay it down. Just give it to Him. He is the Creator of the universe. His resources are limitless. Can He not handle this for you?
He understands more than you know. He has special mercies for people like you. He knows the way it is with you. He made you in His image. You haven’t always honored His plans, but He is willing to overlook the past. He has His eyes on you. You have not left His gaze. He loves how you have tried. He has seen. He has you in the palm of His hand. He keeps you there. You worry about falling, but there is no chance you could. When you fall in your own strength—you only fall as far as the palm of His hand. That’s not very far to fall. Go ahead and fall. He’s right there. He’s got you. He won’t let you go.
Fall into Him. Cave into Him…and then lean. That’s what He’s been waiting for. He is strong and mighty to save.
He is your closest friend. He knows all about you and still loves you. He cares about every single thing you’ve suffered. Those broken pieces are His, too. He knows they are tokens of comfort to you—fractured though they be. He sees them as all fitting together. Maybe not in the shape they were before—but in a beautiful new way. They will be a mosaic of His mercy. Something for you and Him to share. They make sense to Him. He treasures each and every broken piece of you. Just lean.
Declaration: I will find new strength by gazing back at the One whose eyes have never left my pain. I will lean into His strength and draw from His everlasting power to save me over and over again.
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