Surprisingly, I had a good career. I owned a couple of businesses and traveled all over the world. I had plenty of beautiful jewelry—five closets full of nice clothes, shoes, and purses. New cars. Fabulous homes. I had ‘everything’ materially speaking.
After several years of combining drugs and alcohol, my insides were raw. I was in and out of the hospital with ‘knife pains’ in my abdomen. I always carried a large bottle of Maalox in my purse. One doctor told me if I didn’t do something drastic, I was going to lose four feet of my intestines. I continued to drink and take drugs for a few more years. Prescription muscle relaxers ‘for the pain’ were added to my tranquilizers, sleeping pills, and alcohol.
My lungs were in terrible condition. I had serious respiratory problems and had to use inhalers all the time. Another doctor said if I didn’t quit smoking it was going to be disastrous. He said he had never seen such a bad set of lung x-rays for anyone my age in his life. He said I should not smoke one more cigarette. I was 24. I smoked for two more years.
I was in a lot of pain and hemorrhaging frequently. I didn’t seem to be able to help myself. I tried all kinds of things, but I just didn’t have the strength to quit on my own.
One day, in desperation, I was at the end of myself. I said, “God, fill me with Your Peace and with Your Spirit.” God had to have given me the words to say—because I had no idea what I needed. When I prayed that simple prayer, meaning it from the bottom of my heart—He came into my life in a whole new way. The heavy weight of all of the sins of my addictions and wrong choices lifted. The Christ I had accepted at the age of six in a salvation prayer became real to me in a way like I had never known before.
That day was the beginning of my life as an overcomer.
Declaration: I will find new strength and the ability to face reality as an overcomer by being filled with the power of the Holy Spirit and God’s Peace.
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